urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alpineboi alpineboi alpineboi 2006-08-07T14:51:56Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alpineboi:834 2006-08-07T14:51:56Z 2006-08-07T14:51:56Z I feel like crap today. I look down at my body, I have a male (adolscent male) chest and big hips. I look ridiculous. For the past several months I've been arranging appointments, getting ready to go forward with hormones. Now I suddenly feel like I can't do it, like it is going to cost me too much. I can't manage to tell hardly anyone what I am doing. Aghh. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alpineboi:526 2005-11-03T18:54:48Z 2005-11-03T18:54:48Z My father phoned last night. He's having surgery on his throat next week to have a tumor removed. He won't be able to talk ever again after that. I've never met him so I'm trying to figure out how to go and see him. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alpineboi:352 2005-11-01T05:49:12Z 2005-11-01T05:49:12Z My chest is healing so well. The last of the scabs fell off yesterday morning. The one side, where there was a hematoma is still a little swollen, and I'm hoping that it will eventually look like the other side. I'm thinking more about doing drag king stuff, so I can try out facial hair and packing and what not.