alpineboi

I feel like crap today. I look down at my body, I have a male (adolscent male) chest and big hips. I look ridiculous. For the past several months I've been arranging appointments, getting ready to go forward with hormones. Now I suddenly feel like I can't do it, like it is going to cost me too much. I can't manage to tell hardly anyone what I am doing. Aghh.

My father phoned last night. He's having surgery on his throat next week to have a tumor removed. He won't be able to talk ever again after that. I've never met him so I'm trying to figure out how to go and see him.

My chest is healing so well. The last of the scabs fell off yesterday morning. The one side, where there was a hematoma is still a little swollen, and I'm hoping that it will eventually look like the other side. I'm thinking more about doing drag king stuff, so I can try out facial hair and packing and what not.